Pushed Down

TRUTH

And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.

James‬ ‭1‬:‭4

REFLECTION

Let me tell you, I can always find something that I’m lacking.

I am a product of this modern, consumer-oriented, materialistic and superficial society.

I am resistant to this. I am reluctant to admit it. I’m not super happy about it.

But I am as susceptible to the immediate trappings of the modern era as anyone.

And it throws me off center. It distracts me from eternal things. It bends my mind toward dullness.

Not that I think we should be in a constant meditative, spiritual state. But I do believe that the life I live in the flesh is heavily influenced by the pursuits (or lack thereof) of my spirit.

My addiction and now my ongoing recovery from it has tested and molded and informed my faith more than any other single thing, so far, in my life.

And it’s pulled me toward God, toward His perfect ideal, toward living differently, toward intentionality.

Faith has been birthed in the aftermath of my addictive, self-centered, immature, misguided side-quest.

Faith didn’t grow because of it. I don’t believe we have to veer of course in order to find the right path. But my faith has been hardened because of the experience of being off the beam.

Perfection is still on the other side of this life, but I am leaning toward completeness more and more.

God, remind me that I have everything I need in you.

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NEXT

When you’re ready, here are some tools for you:

1. Book List (amazon link)
   Some of my favorite reads related to recovery and/or wrestling with faith.

2. 4th Step Guide (free download)
   A PDF with instructions and worksheets for a thorough 4th step. Straight from the Big Book. Fearlessness not included.

3. 12-Step Christianity (YouTube)
   My thoughts on the parallels between discipleship and sponsorship.

KEEP LEANING FORWARD

Cheers, Eamonn
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